- What was your life like before coming into Sovereign Health?
Life was a daily struggle of worry and misery; trying to juggle bills so I could pay the dealer and still get high! I had lost my vehicle to my addiction and was feeding an isolation of depression. Life was all consuming and literally killing me slowly.
- What are the most difficult parts struggling with addiction/mental health?
For me now the hardest part is being around people talking about it, knowing I could get it whenever I want. Fighting the urges is hard and starting life over at my age is a steep mountain to climb.
- What did you learn during treatment that is most helpful in your life today?
I learned self-respect and changed my thinking about what the ramifications of relapse would be. Rather than being selfish and negative, I learned to respect myself and the ability to make the right choice.
- Describe how your life is different now. What is the best part of your life today?
Today I am grateful for the friends and family I have in my corner. My life is so different. I’m back working, just got my own place to stay and am surrounded by people I love who believe in me. My thinking is more positively based now. I look at the good in every situation before I go off the negative deep end. I find myself laughing way more and worrying way less.
I was challenged at work about a month ago. When I was riding around the community I work at and found a baggie of cocaine, I threw it on my desk at work and forgot about it until that following Monday. I looked at it, grabbed it and took it straight to the manager and gave it to her. She turned it into the police. It was a 1,000 dollar bag of cocaine. That’s when I knew I could make the right choice.
- What are some of your goals for the future?
My goals for the future are to continue working, save up for a new vehicle and move into a nicer house — build a family and just be the best me I can be. One day at a time.
- What would you want to tell other people that are struggling with the same issues right now that you were?
For anyone struggling with life, addiction or any mental challenges, you should know it’s okay to change, it’s okay to ask for help. There are so many people out there who are living full, meaningful lives. They went through the same struggles as you and I — some even worse. Take advantage of your self-worth and know that it’s okay to ask for help sometimes. We get so wrapped up in our problems that we forget about just how fragile life is. So, stay positive and make beautiful memories.